Sorry you’re struggling. Marriage is hard work. The thing is, it takes both partners to make it work. I stayed with my first husband for a decade. Leaving was the right choice for me, and I’ve never regretted it. Nobody can make that choice for you. The choice is to either make peace with the way your husband acts and treats you or make peace with ending things. The bottom line is peace. Life is miserable without it. Best wishes and blessings.