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New Year, New Life
The Archangels Talk About Weighing the Risks with the Benefits
There’s such a thing called risk propensity. It refers to someone’s willingness to take a risk, and mine has always been pretty low. I was a single mom for a number of years, and my kids depended on me for everything. Sometimes, I had jobs I enjoyed, and other times, not so much. Obviously, I couldn’t just up and quit a job without another one to replace it, but when things got bad, I would at least start looking for another position.
When things got really bad, I’d let my imagination take off and picture my dream job and dream life. Sometimes, I’d research certain things and see whether or not they were even feasible. There were a few times I found the courage to pursue a dream, but more often than not, after I dreamed for a while and looked into it, pictured what it would be like, I’d put it all away and get back to work.
Then, my father died from cancer. It was the first major loss I’d experienced, and when that happens, it really makes you realize your own mortality, at least it did me. I’d always dreamt of being a published author. At that time, I loved to read romance novels, and I would daydream about writing my own book and becoming rich and famous. I even started writing a couple of books, but I never finished one of them.
