MM, as difficult as it is to lose someone, grief can be healing, not that it makes it easier to deal with the loss. I’m grieving my sister right now and trying to find peace and balance. It sounds like you’re doing the same, and I know eventually we’ll find it. I’m sending you love. I was in my 50’s when I started channeling the Angels and I thought I must’ve missed something along the way. They told me I found them exactly when I was supposed to, and they gave me new purpose. You’ll find yours again, also, when you’re supposed to. I wish you well on your continued journey. You’ll find your way. Many blessings.