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Is This Really My Life?
The Archangels Discuss Gifts and Work
I distinctly remember, in my early 40’s, feeling very disillusioned with my life. I was working more than one job, trying to get ahead and never quite able to, and I remember asking myself something along the lines of, “So this is my life? It doesn’t get any better than this?” I actually liked my career in education most of the time, but I was tired, I was overworked, underpaid, I was nowhere near retirement, and I could not see any light at the end of any tunnel. I’ve always been a hard worker, but I just couldn’t see the payoff for all the hard work I was doing and the stress that came with it.
Maybe that’s what they call a mid-life crisis, I don’t know. I couldn’t afford to buy a sports car, and I didn’t have any desire to find a sweet, young thing (I was happily married), so I’m not sure it qualifies as a mid-life crisis. What I do know is, I was pretty miserable, and the thought of working for another fifteen years threatened my sanity, or at least what was left of it. I can’t imagine how much worse it is for people who hate their jobs. I’ve been there before, too, and every day is drudgery.
I think a lot of us find ourselves in a similar position at one point or another. I always thought there would be more to life than just working all the time, and we barely had enough money to…
