Hi Tessa. I’m so sorry you’ve had so many hardships in your life. Everyone has to figure out what works for them, what helps them make sense of life. If that’s Atheism for you, I’m glad you found it. I’m not traditionally religious, but I am spiritual, and that’s what works for me. There’s no right or wrong way for everyone, just what’s right or wrong for you. Religion, spirituality, atheism, or any other practice is as good as the people who practice it. One’s not any better or worse than the other, and no one has the right to push their beliefs on someone else, much less judge them. I’m happy you’re at peace now and wish you the very best.