God loves all of us equally without regard to race, religion, sexual preference, nationality, etc. Everyone has to find what works for them. It doesn’t matter if you know Jesus, it matters if you follow His example. I left formal, traditional religion for all the reasons you mentioned, and I’ve never felt closer to God. I’m sorry you get flack from others, because it’s hurtful and hard, but be true to yourself, whatever that looks like. By doing that, you’ll also be true to God. Best wishes on your continued journey.