Beverly, I am so sorry to hear of your loss and your struggles. I lost my husband twelve years ago, and I remember how difficult it was to find my way again. I have an aversion to sympathy cards, so instead, I gift the person a pretty journal and pen to begin replanning the rest of their life whenever they’re ready. Your life will be different, but it can still be rich. If you need a sympathetic ear, email me any time (asktheangels222@gmail.com). Whatever diagnosis you’re facing, remember you’re never alone. I’m hoping things take a positive turn, but whatever happens, eventually, it’ll be okay. This life is temporary for all of us, and better things are waiting for us afterwards, as I know your husband can now attest to. I’m thinking of you, sending loving energy, and wishing you the best and many blessings to come. Hang in there, friend.